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the male Alan. Fortunately Steve had the good sense or compassion not to come up at the same time, for he fully appreciated how Alan must feel. He too felt a little uncomfortable over the know- ledge that sooner or later they would be sharing the room together, and wanted to put that moment off for as long as possible. Alan finally decided to wear the white shirt waist with blue denim skirt he had worn the first day of their trip, together with his black and white loafers. In a spirit of defiance he freshened up his make up, using a litter more blue eye shadow than he had arrived with, also using a deeper shade of lipstick, but still keeping it conservative. He was determined to maintain his role as a girl, but did not want to invite any criticism from his uncle as to his appearance. He substituted a matching set of white beads and earrings, and returned to the living room with his head held high and a smile on his cermined lips, determined not to let them know how hurt he was. Alan was so con- vincing in his mannerisms and dress that much to the surprise of his aunt, unlce and cousin, that almost before lunch was over, they had dismissed from their minds any thought of the boy Alan and had accepted this new feminine version, even to the extent of occasion- ally referring to him as she or her, much to Alan's secret amusement and gratification.

It was not far to the school where the game was to be held, so they decided to walk. This gave the two boys a chance to become re- acquainted and to overcome the strangeness generated by the conditions of their first meeting that morning. Steve asked Alan why he had decided to dress in his present manner. He confessed that the letter from Alan's mother had caused quite a flap when first received, and that his father at first was inclined to say that the visit would not be convenient, but later, as much out of curiosity as anything, has asked them to come. After all, his father was a professor of psychology and was naturally interested in all forms of human behavior. Alan tried to explain how all this had come about and his reasons for wanting to appear in public as a girl. Although Steve was a sympathetic listener, Alan had never really thought this through before, to the extent of being able to justify his actions to someone else. As a result he could not come up with a very convincing argument, of which he was the first to admit. He ended up philosop- ically, and with good humor, "Apparently you have to have some quirk in your make up to act as I am doing, and unless the other person possesses that same something, he would probably find it impossible to understand my state of mind. In any event I am not in

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